This is a first loss for me
The loss of a peer, a coworker
Since it’s a first, it’s hard to know what I should be feeling
Or when these feelings will go away.
Like, will I ever stop thinking about her?
About the life she lived, the way she died?
The short, sudden burst of tears blur my eyes.
I thought that clichés would help me right now…
The “at least she died doing what she loved”, or
“everyone has to go at some point”.
But those aren’t enough. They don’t work for me.
Nothing, really, is enough right now.
Brooke's Celebration of Life is scheduled for this Thursday. As my mom says, "it's gonna be heavy"...